Why I’m Running the Paris Marathon

February 25, 2017

In 42 days, I’ll be running the Paris Marathon in the body God gave me!!!!

I already feel the massive transformation taking place inside of my body and also in my mind. I’m running this race to close the loop of my reentry back into the body that God gave me. I’m running the Paris Marathon to give myself permission to be me, just the way I am; to reek of myself and to live in my Earth Suit, unapologetically.

2017 has been the first year ever, as an adult woman, when I’ve allowed myself to fully celebrate my body, just the way it is. As a teenager and all through my 20s, I had eating disorders and severe body dysmorphia. In my 20s, I changed my body with a breast augmentation when a boyfriend explained, “Real women have boobs.” After that, I secretly risked my life and had liposuction all over my body to try and look curvier, prettier, as a size 14/16 plus-size model. I have had a lot of heavy shame about these stories until a beautiful, brave friend of mine asked me point-blank, “Have you ever forgiven yourself for your past?”

I hadn’t.

I had felt so much shame and responsibility for my misdoings–my past that I felt deeply dishonored myself and my incredible family. For fifteen years, I could not get over my old story. I kept it bottled up inside of me and never told anyone how I felt for two reasons: I didn’t want my family to think it was their fault and I was afraid to be vulnerable. I was afraid to be seen for who I was, uniquely.

Suffice it to say, in fifteen years, I had caused my Earth Suit an unbelievable amount of trauma–emotionally and physically. I was terrified of accepting myself just the way I was. Just the way God made me: Perfect, even with “imperfections.” I mean, our Earth Suits don’t last forever!

After my recent #explant surgery, and then coming into my healthy Earth Suit over the last seven months, I’ve decided to go to Paris to celebrate my body, just the way it is. I’m going to run the Paris Marathon as a reminder that my Earth Suit is just a vehicle, and not a beauty equation that was meant to waste years of my life picking it apart.

I’m going to Paris to honor God’s wish for myself. He didn’t want me to live this miraculous life just to sabotage my Earth Suit–He wants me to celebrate what I’m capable of! He wants me to own that my body is a miracle and He wants my spirit to do something equally as profound! He wants me to use my Earth Suit FULLY and focus my energy on my Higher Purpose in life–not that last five pounds I’d like to lose or apologizing for not covering up a blemish on my chin.

I’m going to Paris to be USED.

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Complication Detoxes, Reeking of YOURSELF, & Finding True Fullness with the Self-Acceptance Master (Podcast)

February 2, 2017

Hey guys! I’m on The Balanced Blonde Podcast chatting with my contagiously happy and bubbly girlfriend, Jordan Younger. We talk about complication detoxes, reeking of YOURSELF, and finding true fullness! I appreciate you listening in for more reasons than one: Namely because I’m fiercely competitive and selfishly want to be the most listened to podcast on Jordan’s 16 episodes. Also, I want you to give you valuable information for a healthy transition into the body God gave you.

I supposed the latter is more important than accumulating more podcast “listens”…but somehow, I’m still fixated on getting more listens (this is me shamelessly reeking of me–which you’ll learn about on the podcast). So let’s do both! How about you listen to the cast and I give you all the deets on what my life has been like over the last seven months: How I lost 45 lbs, grew happier than I’ve ever imagined and cut all the crap out of my life that no longer serves me. And I share how you can do it, too. Because, duh, I realize it’s not always about me.

Message me with any questions at or on Instagram at @iamemilynolan. If you watch my InstaStories, you know I’m always on Instagram so I always get your messages. I lurve getting to know you. Seriously. Get up in my biznass. Especially on Instagram (@iamemilynolan)!

Thanks for listening. Let’s pump up the podcast download numbers out of pure selfishness. Let’s show the world how popular self-love is. And if you’re like, “Bleh, self-love! I’m tired of hearing that, what does that even mean?!” Just know, sometimes even I want to punch myself in the face when I say the “S-L” word. It’s so general, so overused. I like specifics! Which I go into detail about on the podcast! Should we come up with a better phrase than self-love? I’m taking suggestions!!!

Did you download the podcast yet? Damn it, winning matters to me! Side note: Does anyone else completely make up competitions, even when there is none? Like running on treadmill next to someone that ups their speed and you’re like…someone hold my iPhone. I’m about to boss this B.

Thanks for succumbing to peer pressure! Love you guys! I promise, one day there will be hot coffee and crumbly pastries sitting between us.

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Radical Self-Acceptance

October 4, 2016

Several months ago, I made the dangerous decision to get a breast explant–getting my breast implants removed.

I was walking Spunky outside of our condo and stopped to call Mom.

“Mom, I have to remove my implants.” I blurted. She was surprised, definitely, and more so, worried about my health, especially considering the risks associated with having surgery–again–with my genetic blood clotting disorder, Factor V Leiden.

“Do you think you can accept yourself and live with the implants? It’s very dangerous and I’m worried about complications during surgery.”

I had already made up my mind. “I’ve thought about that, but if there’s a safe way that I can get them out, I want to do it. I’ve already set up an appointment with a hematologist.” I’m 100% in or 0%. Never in between.

“I feel them in my body, Mom. When I go for a jog, when I do a pushup. They encumber me and that doesn’t make me happy. I can’t live like this forever.” I explained.

“If I can get them out, I’m going to.” I had said what I’d been thinking for years. I covered my mouth with my free hand. By naming my fear–that I was going to risk surgery again to return back to my original body–I had released it. My final act of rebellion–choosing to return to my perfect body–was no longer a whisper in my body, but it was now alive and real. I had set the whisper free, and with it’s freedom, I too, felt more unlocked. My body had not changed, but my psychology had. I had decided that I was going to be good enough in my original Earth Suit, regardless of what it would look like post surgery. I was return home.

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